3rd Anniversary

Yesterday was our 3rd Wedding Anniversary. I can not believe it has already been 3 years. This year has had its share of ups and downs but through it all I am thankful to have Seth by my side. He is truly my best friend. Seth and I went to Piranha for a yummy sushi dinner then we got ice cream from the Marble Slab and walked around Down Town. We both had a great time. I have included some pictures of our wedding! Enjoy!

Busy....

The last couple of weeks have been pretty crazy. I have been busy trying to get things set up around this house. We are getting new carpet, painting, and having some repairs done. I will be so happy when it is all finished. Last week we went on a little family vaca! Mom, Natalie, Jake, and I left on Wednesday to head to New Braunfels. Thankfully we were able to meet my mother in law for lunch in Round Rock and my sister in law met us all for some shopping at the outlet mall. It is always fun to get to visit with them. We stayed at the Schlitterbahn resort so we could wake up and walk right out to the water park. Thursday night us girls went to the Gristmill. It was my first time in Gruene and I LOVED it. Seth made it to New Braunfels late Thursday night and we all enjoyed the water park on Friday. We loved the Gristmill so much that we all went back on Friday night. It was yummy!!!

Saturday the water park wasn't as much fun because it was so crowded. I have never seen so many people in my life. Even the lazy river was packed full of people. Not fun!! Saturday night Seth's mom and dad met us at our favorite restaurant, Rudy's BBQ. Again, it was another great visit. I love having all of my family in one place.
After some more outlet shopping we made it back home Sunday night.

Busy...

Things have been busy around here..... last week I was busy cleaning, shopping, and getting things ready for Seth's parents to come stay the weekend with us. They were here to celebrate Seth turning 30. We had Seth's birthday party at Fox and Hound Sports Bar. It was so nice to have our friends and family there to celebrate with us.
I can't believe Seth is already 30....I know it's not a big deal to most people, but he was 20 when we met. How did 10 years already pass?

3 Weeks....

I can't believe that 3 weeks have gone by already. Today was my follow up/ post op appointment. Everything looked good. We had some extra testing done after my D & C to see if there was something wrong that might have caused me to have the miscarriage and all of those test came back normal. This means that I am fine, Seth is fine, and that there were no signs as to why I lost the baby. My doctor said I will be able to start trying again around September. I can not wait for it to be SEPTEMBER! I just hope that I get to feeling better emotionally. Yesterday I cried ALL DAY LONG. I haven't cried that much since all of this happened. I could not turn off the tears. It's just hard for me not to wonder "why me?" My doctor said it was normal to be sad and that I will never get over the loss I have gone through. I just pray that I am pregnant again very soon!! Please continue to keep us in your prayers!

Summer break has been great so far....although it has seemed to fly by! Last weekend was great. Friday I went out with a great friend for a much needed girls night. I had so much fun. Saturday Seth and I went to the Ranger game with my mom, sister, and Jake. The office that my mom works in gets suite tickets each year so it made it a lot more enjoyable for a 3:00pm game!
We had a great time with some great people! Sunday the whole family went to HF water park. It was nice to actually get out in the sun and enjoy myself. Thankfully we have season passes so we will be there A LOT!
This week has flown by but I have also had a HUGE "TO-DO" list to work on. Nothing major, just cleaning, laundry, and grocery shopping. But, it still kept me really busy all week.
Seth and I have decided to do some home repairs this summer....we need to replace some exterior boards, paint, and get new carpet. We are also going to clean out our office and get a new desk. Overall, I just want to get this house ORGANIZED!
So, if you are reading this and know of anyone that does home repairs, paints, or has cheap/nice carpet...LET ME KNOW!

Summer....

Things are getting better each day. I have slept more the last two nights. This is a huge deal because I love my sleep and only getting about 4 hours of sleep a day was not making me happy. I have had people email, text, call, and personally ask how I was feeling and about the baby.... to which I had to reply with the "not so good" news. I thought that would be hard to address but it wasn't as bad as I had imagined. I have seen pregnant women and newborn babies and that didn't bother me like I thought so over all I feel like I am on the road to getting better. I of course know that it will not always be easy. I will have times that I get upset and I will always mourn the loss of my first child but, I know that I will have a baby one day. Seth also seems to be doing much better. I am so thankful for such an amazing husband. This experience has made us so much closer.
Onto a happier topic....I have officially completed my first year as a teacher!! Woo~Hoo
Today was the last day of school for the kids. It had its emotionally rough moments but I survived. There are many students that I will always remember and miss. I am very thankful for the job that I have and I look forward to next year. Becoming a teacher is the best thing I could have ever done.
Now it's time to enjoy my summer! I just wish that Seth had time off from his job. He would have if he didn't start a new job in March.....but I am thankful for his new job and know that we will just have to plan a VERY nice vacation next year.

How quickly things can change...

WARNING: This may not be a "warm and fuzzy" post but I feel like I need to write about what has happened. I feel that it will help me to heal in a way. So, if this post is too much for you, I'm sorry. I promise better days are ahead and I will continue to document our journey!
It is amazing to see how much my life has changed. Just last week I was writing about how great my pregnancy was going. That all changed last Sunday, May 23rd. I woke up in a panic because I was spotting. I spoke to the on call doctor and he said it was common and that I should just take it easy. I honestly felt like there was nothing wrong. But, when I woke up on Monday and was still spotting I knew I needed to see my doctor. Unfortunately my doctor was booked so I saw the on-call doctor in the office. By this time the bleeding had increased and changed in color. I knew this was a bad sign. Thankfully Seth was able to meet me at the doctors office and we sat patiently waiting to see what the doctor had to say. After two attempts to hear the heartbeat, he got me into see the sonogram tech. I knew something was wrong when she started measuring my growth and the babies growth. For a minute I thought that maybe I was okay. I could see significant growth in the baby compared to last time. That all changed when the doctor informed me that the baby had passed. My body had continued to grow and progress but that the baby had stopped growing at 8 weeks. It made me sick to think that our baby had been passed for two weeks and I didn't know. I begged the on call doctor to let me see my doctor. I needed her to come in and explain everything going on. I needed the reassurance for a familiar face to let me know that I, we would be okay. Dr. Neville came in and explained that I would need surgery to remove the baby and that the earliest she could get me into he OR was Wednesday May 26th at 4:30pm. It was so hard seeing Seth breakdown and cry. In the 7 years we have been together I had never seen him cry. It was heartbreaking. Thankfully my mother, sister, and Granny all were able to meet us back at home. We called Seth's parents and told them the sad news and asked if Janie, Seth's mom could come stay with us. She was able to make it by 8pm that night. Having our families here was truly a blessing.
Things started to change late Tuesday night. I began to bleed a bit more and cramping increased. By 2am Wednesday morning the cramps became worse and by 7am I was in full labor with contractions every 3-5 minutes. It was the worst pain I had ever felt and I knew there was no way I was going to be able to wait for surgery at 4:30pm. By 8:30am I was bleeding a lot and passing huge clots. So my mom, mother-in-law, and Seth helped me get up and go to the doctors office. My doctor quickly confirmed what we ALL already knew....I had "passed" the baby at home. I will never forget what that felt like. Thankfully my doctor was able to get me into surgery quickly and remove the extra tissue. My doctor truly did not think that I would progress as quickly as I did or she would have never sent me home to wait for 2 days. I could tell that she felt awful for what my family and I had just gone through. I can not thank our mothers enough for being here for Seth and I. I know that we could not have made it through this week without them both. I am also very thankful for my amazing husband. As awful as this week has been I feel closer and more in love with him than ever before.
Now that two days have passed I am feeling better physically but not emotionally. All I want to do is cry. I know it will take time but I am ready to feel normal again.....if only I could remember what that feels like.
It is also good to know that I am not alone. I have talked to may people who have been through the same thing and all of them have children now. I know that patients and time will help us heal. We will try again when my doctor thinks the time is right.
I am blessed in a way...In February I thought I couldn't get pregnant and I did. Then my body did what it is made to do when I experienced the feeling of labor and contractions. I know that my body works and that one day we will have a child.
I just ask that you all please continue to keep us in your prayers!